Sunday 26 June 2011

note to self: Never been washed red P.J's and new sheets don't mix.

     So ya, when Atley woke up this morning I heard," I am wet.  I am all soaking wet." I went to his room and he had forgotten to put a pull up on before bed the night before and I had forgotten to check if he had it on.  I just got him to take off his jammies and put them in the laundry and I grabbed the four corners of his bedding and took it all down to the washing machine.  I didn't realize till after I took the sheets and quilt out of the washer that there was a perfect imprint of his red p.j.'s from the waist to the knee stained onto his brand new sheet.  I had found the red jammies in a box when we were moving, they were new and had never been washed so the dye just ran when it got wet.  It was kinda funny, but then again not really.

    

Saturday 25 June 2011

My home made fly catcher.

     Things are finally starting to get back to normal around here. Last night the boys all went to bed at a normal time and actually went to sleep and got up at a normal time.  The past week has been crazy, and the boys schedules have been crazy aswell.  So another good night sleep for everyone will do us good. 
     After Anthany passed his swimming lessons this morning we packed him and my mom up and drove almost to Wainright where we met my dad and had a weiner roast and explored with the kids a bit.  Then Anthany went home with grandma and grandpa for a week or so.  He is so excited and when I asked him how long he wanted to stay he said a thousand days.  I guess he had told my mom earlier that he wanted to stay forever.  It will definatly be different around here without that boy, probably a bit quieter aswell.

    Speaking of quieter, does anyone else wish their child came with a volume button?  I think my boys are the noisiest boys I know.  The worst thing is I don't think they even realize they are talking/bieng so loud.  I am constantly saying, "quiet down" .  Inside, outside, close by or far away they are so noisy!  How do you get your kid to turn down there voices?

     I finally got all the boxes out of the boys rooms and have them all set up.  I also got all their toys picked up and vacuumed their rooms.  While I was vacuuming I found about three flies that had been squished and left laying around the house.  At first I wondered where they came from then I remembered Alex's facination with flies and how he had caught them and carried them around the house showing mommy and daddy and grandma and whoever else would look at his fly.

     Wow I just looked at my watch and it is only 9:00 and I have watched an hour long episode of FLASHPOINT already!    Guess I should get off my butt and empty some more boxes or something.

     Oh, just incase anyone was wondering I am doing great on my challenge.  I have not bought anything (toys, clothes, books or gadgets) for me or my boys in almost a month.  I have had lots of oppertunities and I can say it has been hard to turn down some really sweet deal.  Almost a month in and 2 more to go.  As for the second half of the challenge I have been really surprised at how easy it has been to say no to chips and chocolate when everyone knows I can't have it.  I haven't been able to stay away from the cookies or ice cream though.  I guess maybe that will be part of my next challenge.

Thursday 23 June 2011

where did my joy run off too?

     I wrote this down one night while laying in bed in the old house, I was to tired to get up and actually type.  Would have been June 15th ish.
     I have been thnking alot about me, my kids, my husband and our lives.  How things are and why they are the way they are.  Yes people will grow and develope their own personalities and attitudes but I think alot of that has to do do with what goes on around them..
     Kids are like little sponges, they seem to see and hear everything even when you don't want them to.  Are my boys lipping off, being rude and yelling at each other because they are seeing Brian or I or others around them doing it?  They have to learn it from somewhere right?  Or are they just being kids that need to be taught what is acceptable?

      I know I am not always happy but a few things have happened in the last little while that have made me wonder, When and where did I loose my joy??  As a teenager and young adult I was the life of the party.  I was always smiling, always telling jokes and always cheering peple up.  I was outgoing and didn't think twice about making everyone feel welcome.  People came to me for elp and advise and I loved it.  I was truely joyful all the time!!

     I can't always tell when Brian is serious and when he is kidding around but he actually asked me the other day, "do you ever smile anymore?"  That really made me sad, what do I say to that?  It really made me think about when the last time I was truly happy or excited about something?  When was the last time I could just sit and be content about the way things are.
   
 I know things have been different in the past few months.  Brian hurt his back and has been home for a few months.  We had to cancel a trip we had been planning.  We bought a new house and sold ours and are now finishing packing se we can move this weekend.  I know I have been a bit bitter because I have had to do most of the work getting ready for all of those things so if this lack of joy had just been the last few months I would understand but it has been longer than that.  It has been a long time!!
     A friend of mine has 2 kids that are the same age as my older 2 (6 and 3) and she has just started golfing again.  Something she really enjoyed befor she had kids.  She said that things just now are getting back to the way they were befor kids.  Meaning she is going out with the ladies and doing things that she enjoys that don't involve the kids.   We both love our kids and have lots of fun with them but even moms need some time on their own.  I am feeling envious and can't wait till I feel like I can have my time without the kids more often.
     Another thing I have wondered.  Is it a lack of me time that has caused me to loose my joy or is it a chemical imbalance in my brain, depession maybe?  Or is it the fact that I am not as close to God as I used to be?  Or that I am not out there helping people like I used to?  Or is it simply a choice that I have failed to make?  Honestly I don't really care how or when I lost it but I would like to figure out how to get it back!
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Wednesday 22 June 2011

oh the joys of moving

     Oh the joys of moving!  Packing, cleaning, and painting the house was just half the battle.  Then I had to keep it that way while the realators showed it.  Luckily the second people that looked at it bought it and I didn't have to worry about the house quite so much. Untill moving weekend that is.  Things didn't go quite as smoothly as planned and we ended up starting the move a day early because of the rain and I didn't quite have every thing packed yet.  It rained almost the whole time we moved and once we were finished it got really nice out.  We were really blessed to have such nice neighbors, the came over Friday morning and said," it is supposed to rain all weekend, would you like to borrow my 18 foot covered trailer?"  I we didn't have that trailer we and all of our stuff would have been really REALY wet.  Another friend had the boys for the day on Saturday which was amazing, they weren't being run over all day by guys with boxs.  I am thinking once again about Anthany saying he could take bags of stuff and put it on his handle bars on his bike and take it to the new house.

     Now that we are here we have to make this home which means unpacking all those boxes that we had just packed up and make all that stuff fit into this new house.  Guess it isn't a matter of if it will fit but a matter of where it will fit.  Unpacking the boys new rooms was so much fun for me cause they each got a new bed and new bedding.  They each have their own rooms.  Anthany picked pirates, Atley picked Jungle and we picked Monkeys for Alex.  Their rooms look so good!  I can't complain, our room is pretty nice aswell.  It is huge but right now it is a huge mess and still has boxes EVERYWHERE.  Every night we unpack and set up more stuff and every night i say I am going to go to bed early but I never do.  There is always a box to unpack or some thing to put away.  
     Brian finally found the dish washer soap so I could turn on that full load that has been stting there for awhile and as soon as that was finished there was anoother pile waiting to go in.  Thank you to whoever it was that invented the dishwasher!  My mom is here and got the laundry all caught up(I think 4 loads), that God for moms!

     The cul-de-sac location is awesome.  The boys are out all the time riding their bike and playing hockey and there is almost no trafic to bother them.  There is a day home across the street and tons of kids around here.  Can't wait for the boys to meet all the neighbor kids.

     So lots of changes around here that came with this new house.  The boys each have their own rooms, Alex is in a big bed, Alex is also almost potty trained and is getting an eye tooth(grumpy), school is almost done and SUMMER HAS ARRIVED!  You should see Brian, he is so cute, he is downstairs setting up the flatscreen tv along with the sterio system with all the extras he has been wanting for YEARS.  He even had it cut out of a magazine and had it on the fridge for a really realy long time.

     I will have to continue this later, it is going to be midnight in one minute and that is way past my bed time.

Monday 13 June 2011

they need to learn!!

     What is it with 3 year old soccer?  I know they are only 3 but they have to learn the game too.  There was a girl on the other team tonight that picked up the ball at half and carried it to our net, set it where she she wanted it along the crease and kicked it in.  She picked it up a couple other times tonight aswell and placed it on the crease and kicked it in.  Like come on! you can't touch the ball with your hands!  Take it away and let the other team take it.  Just my little rant for the night.

     Last night I was packing up my room and found the clippers.  So I said who wants a hair cut before we move?  I got 4 "me's" but only 3 of the boys got hair cuts.  I am not ready to cut Alex's hair yet.  We will let it grow a bit longer.

     In your family have you ever just had enough?  Enough talking back, enough yelling at each other, enough hitting, enough not listening, enough not cleaning up, just enough!!  That was me this afternoon.  Atley wasn't listening to anything I said and Alex was giving me a dirty look and saying "NO" whenever I asked him something.  This wasn't everything it was just the last straw.  I called a family meeting for tonight and sat with the boys and talked about all the things that were bothering me and why.  I asked them if they liked all the "not nice" stuff that was happening and how we could change it.  We came up with some ideas and I hope things will get better but if anyone has some ideas I am open to them.

     Feb. 22, 2010 - Atley has been go the bathroom on is own for a long time now but lately he has been comming out of the bathroom with his pants down and wanting me to pull them up for him.  I told him if he wanted to go to school like Anthany he has to be 3 years old and he has to be able to pull his pants up on his own.  So he came out to the kitchen and pulled his pants and underwear down around his ankles and then pulled them up on his own and said," school, school!!"
     I think I am going to pause my blogging for about a week or so.  We are moving this week end and I am finding myself getting more and more tired.  All the packing and planning is wearing me out.  So unless I have some extra time in the next couple days so long untill then.

Saturday 11 June 2011

just something about a sick kid.

     I can and have delt with alot of gross things in my life.  It isn't always fun but I have done it.  One thing that I just hate(strong word I know) is puke.  I have thrown up maybe 4 times in my whole life, I have to be really sick for that to happen.  I am very blessed to have such a healthy family cause my boys rarely get sick either.  And bieng sick enough to actually throw up almost never happends.  BUT it did last night.  Atley was up in the night and said mommy I am sick.  He went to the bathroom and left a little trail of puke all the way from his bed to the toilet.  After I cleaned him up and cuddled him and put him back to bed I cleaned up his "trail" and hoped it would be better after that.  Wishful thinking I guess cause about 45min. later when I was almost asleep I heard," mommy I am sick again".  Worse this time, his jammies, sheets, blankie, hair and face had puke on them.  Oh did I mention I HATE puke!  I stripped him down took him to the tub and ran a bath for him then took his sheets and everything else to the washing machine.  Not sure how Anthany slept through most of it cause it stunk in that room so bad.  Anyway, once again cleaned up and put back to bed and he slept for the night.  
     Ya know even thought I HATE puke I love the feeling and the cuddles I get when a child is sick and needs mommy, no one else but mommy, to cuddle them and make it all better.  Kinda like when one of the boys falls down and gets hurt, daddy can kiss it better but they don't stop crying and go  back to what they were doing untill mommy has kissed it better.  AND it is awesome, the kissing thing has gotten better over the years.  With Anthany I would kiss where he got hurt to make it better.  Once Atley was born I could kiss my hand and touch the owwie to make it better.  Now that Alex is around I can even blow a kiss their way and it still fixes the owwie.
     Well tonight I was scared, I thought it was going to have a repeat of last night just with another kid.  Alex went to bed early cause he didn't nap but woke up crying an hour later.  Fortunatly for me there was no puking involved!  just some pepto bismol, warm milk and some awesome cuddles did the trick.
    
     Not sure how it happened but I got out of the house this morning with just Anthany.  We were on our way to swimming lessons, he had his swimming stuff and I had my book.  I actually got to sit for an hour in the middle of the day and read something of my choice.  I did have to stop reading and take a few deep breaths a few times or I would have cried my eyes out right there at the pool.  I was reading Mary Beth Chapmans book, Choosing to See. And I was at the part when she talks about her 5 year old being hit by a car and dying.  Horible thing that happened and I would have thought it horible at anytime in my life but now that I have kids it isn't just horible but it is worse than horible and I have to really try hard not to cry when I think about it.  It isn't just this story either, it is anything bad when a child is involved.  Is it just me or does having your own kids make you more sensitive to stuff?
   
    
Jan. 28, 2010 - we were at the church for a meeting, when the meeting was over there was snacks and Atley couldn't get enough.  he had eaten a bunch of chocolate covered strawberries and still had a giant one in his mouth and his face was full of chocolate and he walked over to me and all I heard was a muffled "CAKE CAKE!"    He hasn't changed, man can that boy eat!

Thursday 9 June 2011

To China and Africa

     We went to Konto furniture yesterday to look at some furniture for our new house and we came across these really cool coffee tables. They had a glass top and had lights going around and down on the inside to make it look like it was a deep deep hole.   I am not sure what Brian told the boys before I walked up but when I did Anthany and Atley were looking into this coffe table and asked me if I knew where it went.  I thought I might aswell have some fun and so I told them that this one probably goes to China.  They looked into it again and never said much.  Then they went to the other one and asked me where that one went.  I told them I wasn't sure but maybe it went to Africa.  They looked down into that one then I said okay guys time to go.  On our way to the door I got more questions, how do you get back from those places?  I said you would have to find the same hole you came out of and junp back in.  The wheels were turning in Anthany's brain, Atley had lost interest already.  Anthany asked can we go to those places sometime?  My reply was sure sometime but not today okay.   He said okay and took my hand and we walked out.

     The same day we were getting out of the van to go into the brick to look at more furniture.  The boys started talking about the beds we bought for them there and Atley asked how we were going to get them to our house cause they wouldn't fit in daddy's truck.  Anthnay told him that a big moving truck would take some stuff and daddy's truck would take some stuff amd mommy's van would take some stuff and we could put some stuff in bags and take it on our bikes.  I think maybe that would work, seeing we are only moving 4 or 5 blocks we could give them each their own back packs and they could fill them with toys and ride back and forth.  lol It would keep them busy anyway.

     I went to bed last night as soon as I had put the two older boys to bed which was about 8:00pm.  Granted I didn't fall asleep till around 9ish but that is still about 3 hours sooner than normal these days.  The extra sleep was totally needed!  I had such a nice day today, I had so much more patience, and energy for Brian and the boys.  So tonight instead of cleaning up as much as I would have liked I came to bed early to type in my blog then hit the hay.

Jan. 21st 2010 - Atley is so cute, the plumber was here today and even he commented on how cute he is.  I guess it helps that he is such a big flirt.  The other day we were at superstore and Atley was being noisy and annoying then we went past an older lady near the door and he got really quiet for a second then he looked at her and tilted his head just a bit and said "Hi" in a cute drawn out almost musical way.
  
    

Tuesday 7 June 2011

Which way are we shooting?

     I really enjoyed watching Atley's team play last night.  They are called the black dragons and they sure are cute in there matching jerseys that go down to there knees(and on some kids past their knees).  I especially got a kick out of the little huddle they had after their practice and after snack just before the game started.  The coach sat the team down on the grass and said," okay, which net are we shooting on today"?  The kids thought for a minute and most of them pointed towards the other teams net.  Then the coach asked,"okay, where will our goalie stand?"  Most of the kids pointed at our net. "and where will the other teams goaile stand? coach asked  It was funny cause some of the kids still didn't have it all sorted out, they were still pointing at the wrong net.  I remember what a friend said when Anthany was still in U4 soccer,  she said when they are this young we are doing good if we keep them all running on the right field.  So true!!

     So ya, Alex(19 months) has discovered the freedom of running around the house with nothing on.  This evening he unzipped his P.J.s and wriggled out of them, then came over to me and pushed his hips forward and grabbed his diaper and said "du"  He wanted me to take his diaper off.  So I did cause it was wet, but he refused to get a dry one on.  He poops in the potty 9 times out of 10 I thought it would be fine.  I did try to keep an eye on him.  Finally 30 minutes later I told him it was time to go to bed so lets get jammies on.  He didn't like that idea so I picked him up and took him to his room, put a diaper and jammies on then was going out of the room to say goodnight to daddy when I felt something squishy under my foot(thank God I was wearing socks).  I had stepped in a log Alex had layed right by his bedroom door.  GROSS!!!

     Berries and yogurt is a favorite snack around here, and Atlley really likes Saskatoon berries.  Tonight after Anthany's soccer game I got all the boys to table and got them each a bowl of this favorite snack.  As I was bringing it to the table Atley asked me," mom are they askatoon berrries?   He calls them askatoon berries all the time, not sure why he has a hard time with the 's' but it makes me smile everytime.

     In Jan. 2010 I started writing down some of the cute and funny things that my boys do and say.  I started reading some of then again today and I will share some of them with you. 
     New years day 2010  --  Today starts the beginning of a new year and what a better way to start off a new year than to tell your brother to do something you know he's not supposed to do then tell on him. Brian and I were sitting eating our breakfast and we both noticed it got really quiet downstairs where the boys were playing.  Next thing we knew Anthany came upstairs and wispered in my ear," mommy Atley peed in a bucket down stairs."  So I go down stairs and find Atley with his pants down and his bum stuck in a bucket with pee in the bottom of it.

Monday 6 June 2011

Never enough food!!

     I made spaghetti and meat sauce for supper tonight and everyone had seconds.  Atley finished a big bowl and a half at 5:20 then I took him to soccer.  At 6:00 it was snack time at soccer and he had a yogurt tube.  Then as he was running up and down the field he stopped by the side line and said, "Mom I am really kinda hungry."  Then after soccer we got home and I gave him another bowl of spaghetti and then a bowl of ice cream.  This boy never stops eating.  I am scared of what the food bill will be when my 3 boys are teenagers.  They will eat more than their dad and that is scary!

     I really enjoyed watching and listening to the kids today.  We had a couple girls over for a play date and all five kids were playing in the water and in the sand box.  They found some worms very early on in the afternoon and spent the rest of the time looking after them and making homes for them and passing them around.  A few time I even heard a couple kids crying cause they had lost there worms then screams of excitement when they had been found again.

     It is just amazing how much recycling our family piles up in a week, especially now that CentraCam is accepting plastics.  We have big boxes in the garage where we seperate everything into there designated piles and they fill up way to fast.  Strawberry and baby tomato containers, newspapers,soup cans, juice boxes, plastic bags and milk jugs ect. ect. So much packaging.

     Does anyone else have the problem of -if it looks different it must taste different?  My boys are usually pretty good eaters and they arent very picky but at least one of them(Anthany) thinks that home made strait cut fries taste different than home made curly fries.  Brian had bought an apple peeler/corer just before christmas last year and the boys love it for apples and for potatoes.  It peels the potatoe and spirals it.  We then add a touch of olive oil and a bit of seasoning salt then bake them in the oven.  All the boys eat tons of then but the other night I just cut up the potatoes and put the oil and salt on then and baked them like normal.  But, I am sad to say that there were alot of leftovers.  Sometimes it is all about the fun of food.

     Kids like routine, they like to know what they can and cant do and what the day holds.  At our house every night after supper the boys go to there room for 30 minutes to play by themselves or with each other.  It gives me time to clean up, watch the news or just relax for half an hour.  They know that that's the way it is and don't complain most of the time.  But you know it is amazing, if I ask them any other time to just go play in their room for awhile it is hard to keep them in there. 
     Bedtime is another important routine at our house.  Brian works in camp 2 weeks and home 2 weeks so when he is gone I really need bedtime to go smoothly so I have my evening to clean up, get ready for the next day and have some time for myself.  when Brian is home I need that time to do all my normal stuff plus to spend time with him.
     Right now my bedtime routine is being slightly interupted by a little boy who is outgrowing his afternoon nap.  When he sleeps just a bit to long in the afternoon he doesn't want to go to bed till 10:00pm but if he doesn't nap he is a bear by 5:00pm.  To find that perfect ballance is the trick.

     Now for an update on my challenge.  I went to Jay alkers with my boys and we went on all the rides and had alot of fun just like we planned.  AND we walked by all the sales and the games and I never bought a thing.  Anthany did find a toonie on the seat of one of the rides that he was on and bought cotton candy with it.  I was also offered a 50% off deal on some books but turned it down.  It is only a deal if you really need it right!?!  As for the chocolate and chips well I havent had any but I think I will have to add buttered popcorn, brownies and squares to my don't eat list.

Sunday 5 June 2011

what is normal?

     What is normal?  I thought I had a good routine going with my boys.  We did the things we did on school days and we did the things we did on not school days.  Supper and evening activities were planned for soccer nights and not soccer night.  Things had a way of working out when Brian was home and way of working out when he was away at work.  I do like to be spontainious and I think I am pretty relaxed but I also like the be in control of what is happening.  Or atleast know what is going on and plan accordingly. 

     We had been looking to buy a new house and finally found one we liked.  We were going to buy it and move in then fix up our place and sell it.  Sounded like a good plan!  So we put in our offer on the house we wanted and got it.  As it worked out with the bank we were dealing with said we had to have an offer on our house now before we took possession of the new house or we would have to get a 2nd mortgage rather than just adding to the one we have now.  So we decided to list our house.  But it wasn't just that simple.  Brian had also just hurt his back and couldn't do much of anything so I had to clean, pack, paint and repair the house in the evening after the kids were in bed already.  We had also planned on going to Peru for a month and would be back a couple days before we got the new house so I packed up the house accordingly.  Only kept enough stuff that we needed befor we left on our trip.  This included Anthany's craft box, and alot of their toys and games.  It was okay for a bit we could make due with what was not packed untill we left on the trip, it was still pretty normal.  Well pretty normal except for the lack of sleep I was getting for trying to get the house in order to list it.(which I am still not caught up on)
   
 The abnormal began when Brians back was so bad that we had to cancel out trip.  The boys were disapointed and I was upset but what could we do?  So now we had an extra month to live here in this house with most of our normal stuff packed in boxes in the garage.  The boys were missing their toys and their craft box(my boys did alot of crafts) and soon after we were supposed to have left I had to start opening boxes and getting out stuff that we had run out of.(soap, T.P., spices, my big bowl to make bread, ect.) 
   
 It is also abnormal cause Daddy is home all the time but can't play with the boys unless it's something you can do while laying in bed or the floor.  We are used to dad comming and going and he isn't used to being home all the time.  He isn't used to hearing the noise of kids running around in the house and playing and fighting and being loud monster trucks and doing the things three busy boys do all day.  And the boys arent used to bing told to be quiet and don't run in the house all the time.  Brian finally understands why I like it quiet sometimes instead of having music or t.v or something on all the time.   I am used to running the house the way I want while he is gone and most of the time when he is home cause he is usually busy doing other things.  I am used to picking my battles with the boys or I would be saying no, no, no, no, no all day long.  The things that are importand to me aren't always important to Brian and vise versa.  I am not used to someone listening to me parent all day long and telling me what I am doing wrong and how to fix it.  So, I guess, all that to say that things aren't the way I would like then to be around here.  I would like to be spending more time with my boys rather than spending time getting the house ready to move.  I would like to be moved already so I don't have to keep telling Anthany, "please don't tape your stuff all over the walls and mirrors.  I would like my husbands back to be better so he is not in pain and grumpy so much,(and so I could have some help with the house and boys).  I just want a new normal, a new routine, and I don't think I can get that untill we are settled into our new house.  Good thing it is only 2 weeks away!

Friday 3 June 2011

Rotton Candy

     This morning after I took Anthany to school I took Atley to Jay Walkers.  It was early and there wasn't very many people there yet except for all the ladies that were at the Lou's Fashions sidewalk sale.  We walked down the street that had all the games on it wondering if there was anything at the end and there wasn't.  Good thing cause I never went back down that road again.  As Atley and I were on our way down the street the game opperators were asking us to come and play, we ignored most of them.  Then finally I said to one no thank you and kept walking.  On the way back one guy said come and play come and play.  I said no thanks he has a bracelet and no money.  The guy said that is why you use your money to which I replied I didn't bring any.  which was the truth!  I purposly didn't cause I didn't want to buy anything.  He said you are a bad liar then as I walked away he yelled after me, you are such a bad liar.  I was so angry and upset that they can talk like that that I complained at the info center.  Like do they think that they are going to get poeple to play by calling them liars.
     That was my bad experiance with Jaywalkers.  No for my good story.  Anthany found a toonie in a seat of one of the rides he was in and wanted to spend it on cotton candy.  when we went to ask how much cotton candy was they said $5 so I told him we didn't have enough and we started to walk away.  The lady called us back and gave him the cotton candy for his $2.  The cutest thing was when Atley asked for some of the cotton candy he asked for Rotton Candy.
    Anthany, Atley and I were at Jay Walkers from after school till 8:30 with the exception of 45 min when Atley had swimming lessons.  We all had a good time but it sure was cold.  When we first got there Anthany went on the ferris wheel for the first time then both boys went in the rock and roll wobbly house 19 times in a row and then two more times later.  I never thought I would see the day when My two older boys held hands and did things together without whinning about it.  But... they did.  Anthany took Atleys hand and they went on the octopus and and the screemer and a few other rides. 
     Atley asked if he could go home a few times throughout the night.  When it was finally time for all of us to go home I said who is ready to go home and Atley replies "yay home!!"
     Just after lunch time today I made a really bad choice.  I don't know what I was thinking??  Brian was at an appointment, Anthany was at school, both little boys were sleeping and I had almost fallen asleep laying in bed with Atley.  I should have gone to bed myself and had a nap but did I? NO  I stayed up and cleamed up and made browies.  That kind of oppertunity doesn't come around very often.  I should have taken it.  There will always be time for cooking and cleaning but not much time for napping.  Next time I WILL NAP!!

Thursday 2 June 2011

Lost myself in motherhood

     Some of the things Anthany does I just have to laugh!  Last night he offered to clean up the gardening tools I was using in the front yard.  How can I say no?  I told him that would be nice thank you.  This morning when I went out the back door to take him to school I found a shovel leaning against a garden claw that had the points sticking up and on each point was hanging the other garden tools.  A mini rake, a little digger and a weed puller.   They were all placed just right according to him.  A couple of weeks ago I asked if he would go out and pick up the toys and put everything where it goes.  I looked out the Kitchen window and watched as he stacked bikes, dump trucks, buckets of toys and everything else that "needed to be put away" on top of the already stacked up 4 lawn chairs.  I was gonna take a picture of his hard work but didn't get around to it till morning and by that time it had blown over.
     K. now on a more serious note.  I went to my profile for this blog and tried to fill it out.  It was really hard and I couldn't even fill most of it out.  I don't know what to say about me, or what my interest are or hobbies.  I could give you a list of all those things of who I used to be but I seem to have disapeared into motherhood and lost myself.  Everything I do involves my kids, even my interest of digital scrapbooking, cause it is pictures of them that I am scrapbooking.   I know some of you are thinking, "well you just have to find time for yourself and do what you want".  Everyones life is different and don't get me wrong I love spending time with my boys but I think getting away sometimes gives us both a bit of perspective and it make me a better mom.  BUT... getting away for me right now kinda feels like I am a teacher calling in a sub in the sence that it is time off but it takes more work to prepare for it.
     I have seen moms that now have all their children in school and all of the sudden have more time alone on their hands.  They go back to work or volunteer or work on project that have been put on the back burner for so long.  I sometimes think of what I will do when all my kids are in school all day, it is hard to picture that day cause it is so far away. One thing I want to do for sure is go back to the gym.  I find it so much easier to work out in the morning rather than at night after the kids go to bed.  When people ask me what I will do I usually say I'm not sure but I would like it to be be something where I can work with things and not people for awhile, just because when you deal with kids or people all day your mind is always going and I would like mine to stop for awhile.
     So who am I apart from my kids?  That is a good question.  maybe I should be asking a different question like who and I because of my kids?  I don't know... I all I know is that things are different now.  Not better or worse but just different.
    

Wednesday 1 June 2011

Bugs, worms and dirt.

     I am pretty sure a whole bunch of ants a few worms and atleast one ladybug got dug up and relocated today.  Me and the boys spent the morning and most of the afternoon out in the yard, me diging in the dirt to get the weeds out and then digging in the dirt to find bugs.  At one piont they were digging ants out of the flower  bed and putting them into the flower pot that containes the strawberry plant that Anthany gave me for mothers day.  When I was digging weeds I came across an earth worm which I gave to the boys to add to their collection of ants.  When Anthany finally let Atley have a chance to hold it I heard,"Atley don't hurt it, it's an animal"   I will miss this old house and it's yard when we move.  The boys know exacty which rocks in the front and the back yard to lift and find an ant hill.  It will be sad but there will be all kinds of new things to discover at the new house.
     Has it ever amazed you how you can brush a child off at the back door and insist that they take off their clothes before entering the house but there is still almost half the sand box in the tub once you pull the plug and the water is drained!  Like seriously where does it all come from?
     I am a lucky mom.  My boys love veggies, raw or cooked.  Even though I know this about them I am still always surprised at how fast a plate of veggies disapear.  We had soup and veggies and dip for lunch and I cut up what I thought was enough veggies for lunch aswell as enough to snack on for the rest of the day.  NOPE gone and they were even asking for more.  Guess That is one thing I will never complain about.
     Okay, so my friend is doing a personal challenge and has asked if anyone wants to join her.  I decided I would join but I will tweek it just a bit.  The rules for my challenge are that I will not buy any clothes, toys or gadgets for me or anyone else in my house till September 1st with the exception of B'day gifts.  We are however are moving this month and will need a few things for the house.   Another part to this challenge is that I will not eat chocolate or chips till September 1st.  We will see how it goes.  I challenge you to find something in your life that you would like to change and set some rules and a time frame for yourself.  But remember it is always easier when you tell someone about it, it keeps you acountable.