Some of the things Anthany does I just have to laugh! Last night he offered to clean up the gardening tools I was using in the front yard. How can I say no? I told him that would be nice thank you. This morning when I went out the back door to take him to school I found a shovel leaning against a garden claw that had the points sticking up and on each point was hanging the other garden tools. A mini rake, a little digger and a weed puller. They were all placed just right according to him. A couple of weeks ago I asked if he would go out and pick up the toys and put everything where it goes. I looked out the Kitchen window and watched as he stacked bikes, dump trucks, buckets of toys and everything else that "needed to be put away" on top of the already stacked up 4 lawn chairs. I was gonna take a picture of his hard work but didn't get around to it till morning and by that time it had blown over.
K. now on a more serious note. I went to my profile for this blog and tried to fill it out. It was really hard and I couldn't even fill most of it out. I don't know what to say about me, or what my interest are or hobbies. I could give you a list of all those things of who I used to be but I seem to have disapeared into motherhood and lost myself. Everything I do involves my kids, even my interest of digital scrapbooking, cause it is pictures of them that I am scrapbooking. I know some of you are thinking, "well you just have to find time for yourself and do what you want". Everyones life is different and don't get me wrong I love spending time with my boys but I think getting away sometimes gives us both a bit of perspective and it make me a better mom. BUT... getting away for me right now kinda feels like I am a teacher calling in a sub in the sence that it is time off but it takes more work to prepare for it.
I have seen moms that now have all their children in school and all of the sudden have more time alone on their hands. They go back to work or volunteer or work on project that have been put on the back burner for so long. I sometimes think of what I will do when all my kids are in school all day, it is hard to picture that day cause it is so far away. One thing I want to do for sure is go back to the gym. I find it so much easier to work out in the morning rather than at night after the kids go to bed. When people ask me what I will do I usually say I'm not sure but I would like it to be be something where I can work with things and not people for awhile, just because when you deal with kids or people all day your mind is always going and I would like mine to stop for awhile.
So who am I apart from my kids? That is a good question. maybe I should be asking a different question like who and I because of my kids? I don't know... I all I know is that things are different now. Not better or worse but just different.
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